Monday, January 12, 2009

My teacher told my classmates im mature.. which really shocked me.
Dint really know wad gave him this thinking. But it really kept me thinking.

Yes, when it comes to play, i can play with u all u want.
But when its serious, be serious.

I thought im still a young 20yrs old little girl. Just go to school, study, play.
Just few hrs ago, it struck me.
Though only at the age of 20, i seem to have seen alot.
I regonised the importance of 'wei yu chou mou'
because i dun want to follow the steps of my parent.
I planned my road 2yrs ago. I know clearly what i want in life.
Because i regret when its time to be serious, i still fooled around..
I let my parent who looked up and think highly on me down.
and i ended up wasting 2more yrs in ite.
if not, given my family current situation,
i could have the ability to help them as i shd only left 1more yr in poly n prepare to work.

but right now, im only starting my poly life in ard 3mths time.
i can now only hope that the rsaf or navy accept my sponsership scheme to study in poly.
if not, i can only go to work given my family current situation.
wad i can do now is not ask for money at home.
hopefully, if i sign a bond with the saf, the extra money received can at least help the family.

Yet my mum still nags at me (tgt with the other 2) at why dint we go to work during sch holidays.
Im pissed at this and reply : Hello~~~ r u toking to me?
Every holiday, i worked. except for the last 1 where i got lots of assistance scheme frm sch.
2mths gone. the 800+ still with her.
I dint chase her for it? Even ask her to return when she has enough.
ok, great. swallow all these dwn to stomach.. again.
she's just looking for someone( yea.. duno y everytime me) to shoot at...
which she juz did it again when i was in my room doing nth -____________-

Next, the nature of all humans.
Their thinkings really gave me- Eeerrr..
Today was the release of O lvl results.
Was sitting beside my sis looking at her chatting with her friends. all with the result-27 n abv -_-
i dun1 to go ite. private is exp. i dun1 to retain/retake. i want to appeal.
den.. how? go work lor? Dun even noe wad they want in life.
my sis ask 1 to go ite n her fren reply.. wad course? -______- bth

Do u all really noe wad u want in life?
As if play is all they are doing right now.
not to mention they are only 16/17. A 20, 22, 24 etc ages person dun even noe.
majority of dem gave me the thinking.. juz another useless good for nth. *shakes head*
y does 1 only have to learn a lesson in order to grow up or see things clearly.

all in all, im verry veeryyy glad tat my dear fellow girls know wad they want in life =)
im also very lucky to get a place in ite where i only signed up when lesson has already started 3weeks.
Looking back, it really is the best choice when 1 fails their O lvl.
I will really strive hard if im lucky enough just one more time to get the sponsership for poly.