Wednesday, January 21, 2009

On the 20th day of 2009,
I have got alot of feelings deep inside me.

I hit my daddy's van last sat and the whole window panel behind went smashhed~~~
I dint understand wad my dad was talking abt few days b4 the incident happened.
He tried to warn me abt those multi-storey carpark where van CANNOT park with their buttock in 1st.
After 2-3days only, tragic happened.. haikz..
My mum starts nagging non-stop which i got dulan at y dint she bother to listen to my explanations and kup her fone.
thus, i din explained y all this happened to any1.
The fact's tat the car was already badly hurt by me. explanations are just excuses.
The nxt day, i got to noe frm my sis tat my dad actually said he dint blame me at all.
makes me feel more guilty.
The poor van was fixed on monday. My dad asked y dint i drive his van to dabao dinner for them juz now.
Somehow i lost my confidence =\

Today was my early reunion dinner coz my grandma will be flying off to Australia again this friday.
my uncle had a talked with me.. which no1 noes coz we r in the kitchen.
i tot my decisions are great and final. Yet he's the 1st to disagree.
His disagreement makes alot of sense to me n it gaves me the feeling of some1 hitting my head frm behind, telling me not look at the advantages but also the disadvantages which i really nv ever tot of coz i tot there's none!
And now, i have to think another solution again.
Although he gave me one, but i think it's really stress.

After dinner, my dad let me drive the car back which I was really shocked at he dint lose confidence on me afterall.

After this two incident did i noe that there are so many people caring for me.

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